Gosh! Why can't I be better and really hold to my plan to lose maybe 5 kg of fat and get few kg:s more weight as MUSCLES! Why cant I stop eating all the good stuff tough I'm not hungry and I know I will regret I ate because I really, REALLY wanna get this body I want!
I want those solid thighs and bum so I could wear any trousers I want, that waist so I can use any tops I want without having to think is my tummy too big in this. I wanna be able to use shorts without the feeling that my thighs are wobbling from sode to side when I walk! I wanna be comfortable even in bikinis! I wanna wear clothes I love that I can't wear with pride now because I know I look horrible in them......
I really need to do this and I know people don't understand why because "I'm already so skinny". But its not the same fucking thing as having a great body!! I want muscles in stead of wobbling FAT!
The question is
WHAT do I have to do so I really would hold to my plans not to eat candy but only one day a week and really go out and have a walk more often and go to the gym 3 times a week! And eat more salads and not to eat as much as I used to and eat more often but less and drink more water and etc..
I know what I have to do to get the body but why am I not obeying myself...?